Thursday, March 3, 2011

Reflections on Humility

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known -- I Cor 13:11-12

When I was in my 30's in seminary I was, I realize now, quite beyond arrogant in my knowing what I thought.  I had literally ACHED to be 18 and then 21 and be a "real adult."  I turned 21 and really thought that I had assumed a position in life where I could control and run my life.  Into my 30's, and on into my 40's, I carried the unexamined assumption that I had become a man and was seeing clearly in the mirror and I was meant for saving the world.  It's embarrassing and laughable to see this admission come out of my fingertips onto the screen! I notice with considerable chagrin how I named my health blog -- healtheworld-mof.  I leave it named that now as a painful jabbing reminder to my ego of my youthful arrogance.

Fact now is that in my 50's, I look in the mirror and see nothing but the mud out of which God scooped me.  Rubbing the glass only smears and I am left with nothing but the power to ponder.  I had always not been able to make sense of the phrase, "fear of the Lord."  In Sunday School I had heard about nothing but the love of God, and to fear God just made no sense whatsoever.  I think my inability to see the "fear of the Lord" was a symptom of my lack of humility.  Humility is a space that, I think, is entered from the door where we have been stripped of our certainty and knowledge and have only God to rely on for getting through a day.  Not knowing what a day holds, trusting only in God to reveal it minute by minute, engenders a significant degree of silent reverent respect for what the Almighty can do.  Faith is holding on in spite of the fear of where it may go.


  1. Oh so true! And what an awesome God we have to hold us up as He does.

  2. The quote comes to mind....Do what you can with what you know, and when you know more, do better. I think we're all a little arrogant in using what we think we know and life has a way of batting us around and telling us we're fools. It's part of the growing process. I never saw anything wrong with Heal the World. Figured Mof was working on his little corner of that world and it has to start somewhere. And maybe that's what God intended.